July 2012


I’ve never seen a metaphysical angel but the metaphorical ones who see with empathy, compassion and love are rare enough and may be the only angels we need.

I continue the rather terrible habit of quoting things I have written elsewhere. This was a response to a quote on the Heaven and Hell FB page:

‎”Angels can recognize the nature of our unique essence on the basis of nothing more than a brief conversation with us. From hearing the tone of our voice angels sense what we love; and from hearing what we say, angels sense our level of understanding.”
-Emanuel Swedenborg, True Christianity, Vol. 2

I can’t judge the reality of Swedenborg’s claim to have seen the Afterlife but I believe that we have the capacity to make heaven or hell right here; that we can be angels or demons. To be either an angel or a demon requires considerable personal power. Angels and demons both carry a flame but one enlightens and the other burns.

Loving Clouds

Someone’s Facebook post. I thought I should add:

To go beyond desiring, instead of saying ‘the clouds are clearing’ say ‘these clouds are awesome’.

Maybe if we slow down and become less involved in our personal stories we can really feel how awesome everything is no matter what happens.

The Practice, the Work and the Love

A beautiful image. Time to meditate, slow down, do the work. This is sufficient.

Bad habits are the worst enemies you can have. You are punished by those habits. They make you do things you do not want to do, and leave you to suffer the consequences. You must drop bad habits and leave them behind you as you move forward. Every day should be a transition from old habits to better habits. Make a solemn resolution to keep only those habits that are for your highest good.

I saw this post from Divine Evolution. I was thinking about my bad habits and it seemed to speak to me. Another Divine Evolution post said:

The best way to get rid of your undesirable tendencies is not to think about them; do not acknowledge them. Never concede that a habit has a hold on you….You must develop “won’t” habits. And stay away from those things that stimulate bad habits.

Therefore I should not focus on bad habits, on my negatives. Focus on the practice, the work and the love, and let those things define me to myself and others.

Make the decision that you’ll no longer use excuses to keep you from what you know is in your best interest. Today, act on something you’ve always avoided and explained away with a convenient excuse. Make a phone call you’ve been putting off, write a letter to a friend, put on a pair of walking shoes and go for a stroll, clean out your closet–do something you’ve been justifying not doing with excuses.
Divine Evolution

Often my bad habits are excuses for not doing what is in my best interest.

A link from the Divine Evolution FB page led to an article by Swami Kriyananda that gave this advice on habit:

A strong affirmation of will can change old habits in a day—so my Guru once told me when I said I wanted to overcome a fault in myself. Indeed, strong affirmation can change those patterns with a single breath!

My running has become a key part of my Practice and I believe that it has changed what some would term my energy or vibration. I now need to deepen that Practice with regular and more intense meditation and yoga. If a door has been opened .. and if I believe it is the case then it is so .. then I must take advantage of it to explore spiritual practice.

I Had Hair Then

The first picture shows me at the right end of the middle row. It is maybe 1970 or 1971. I am in the Sixth Form at Ernest Bevin Comprehensive School in Tooting.

The second picture shows me in late 1988 or 1989 since I’m with Daniel and he looks about a year old.

On Saturday I was looking through my papers and some old photos. Trying to file stuff but constantly being distracted, drawn into memories.

Some people say, very kindly I think, that I still look like I’m in my 30s but I don’t think so. The picture shows that I was much better looking in my 30s and had hair. Things started to go to pot-belly when I hit 40. Now I’m 59 and thinking back, I have not achieved what I wanted to achieve by this age. I did not want specific things; I wanted to be a better and more accomplished person. That sounds like regret but it is not, or if it is then it is very slight.

Last Friday I attended the funeral of a very accomplished Guyanese man, Dr Edward Simon, who seemed to have lived a long and exemplary life with great determination, dedication and discipline. These are qualities that I have lacked. However I am increasingly accepting where I am and I increasingly know who I am. I recognise the futility and fallacy of regret in a deep way.