She advertising her workshops, and herself as a psychic. I believe that there are genuine psychics. I don’t know if Heidi Sawyer is a genuine psychic but what she says about change in 2012 does resonate with me. I think that there are times when change is more necessary and more possible. Carlos Castaneda talks about the ‘cubic centimetre of chance’:
All of us, whether or not we are warriors, have a cubic centimeter of chance that pops out in front of our eyes from time to time. The difference between the average person and a warrior is that the warrior is aware of this and stays alert, deliberately waiting, so that when this cubic centimeter of chance pops out, it is picked up. ~ Carlos Castaneda
Castaneda’s phrase, too, resonates with me. I see a need to break free from where I am. My ‘stuckness’, incompleteness. The past year, the past three years, I’ve been making and breaking resolutions. The resolutions were made with the intention of changing the patterns that keep me drifting and not achieving my potentials.
I thought that keeping the resolution to train for and complete the ten mile run would be key to my moving on in other areas but it was done and I am still stuck. That’s not to say that the running was without value. It has been of great value but was never enough to break through. I think I’ve trying to outrun the ‘demons’ that hold me back; demons of boredom, fear, and habit. My problem is not, of course, unique; the author Colin Wilson saw the retreat into the dullness of mundane life as an existential problem. Wilson wrote a science fiction novel called ‘The Mind Parasites’ and another called ‘The Philosophers Stone’ which both used the metaphor of alien entities warping our perceptions so that we fail to be excited by the world and by ourselves. I found these books interesting on a personal level because they gave some clue that there might be a ‘trick’ that would allow the mind to become free of the metaphoric parasites.